Few fan communities are as loyal, or divisive, as the juggalos. The people who consider themselves juggalos often refer to other members as "family," while outsiders can't quite wrap their heads around the face-painting, Faygo-spraying Insane Clown Posse fans. Yet even fans can outgrow the juggalo lifestyle.
Former members of this unique family took to Reddit to describe what it was about the fanbase that drew them in, and what ultimately pushed them away.
One Person Doesn't Like Thinking About Their Time As A Juggalo
From a Redditor:
I used to enjoy it. I felt great, I enjoyed ICP and being a juggalo. I even made a YouTube channel with "juggalo" in the name. Now I hate it.
I can't stand to remember what I once was. Thank God I didn't put the makeup on. I still have a few ICP songs on my phone - I'll admit they're catchy. I listen to a song or two on occasion, but I'm not a juggalo.
One Person Knew It Was Just A Phase
From Redditor /u/wasajuggalo:
I just grew up. I wanted a good job, I wanted to be successful in my career, so I let it go and never looked back. It had its fun moments, but deep down I knew it was just a phase, and the sooner I got past that, the sooner I could do what I really wanted to do in life.
One Person Saw A 'Ploy For More Money'
From a Redditor:
I'm no longer a juggalo because I looked around the door and just found the ploy for more money. If you are treated like "family" and told in songs that "juggalos will never die alone," it's perfect for people that are lonely (not saying all juggalos/lettes are lonely, but there is a strong pull for them) to make connections with people. So you'll throw your money at them for that.
Am I embarrassed by being a juggalo? No. I was proud to claim my set and love the people around me. But with that being said, half of the people I was with were substance abusers and going nowhere in life.
For One Fan, Other Juggalos Ruined Being A Juggalo
From Redditor /u/SILENT_TYRANT:
I still love ICP, Twiztid, and the underground scene in general. None of that has changed. I still, so desperately, want to consider myself a juggalo; I love what this community of people stands for, but there's one thing I can't stand, and that is the hypocrisy and stereotypes that plague a large majority of this group.
So a little bit about my introduction into the family: I was about 13 when I met my first boyfriend. He was 17 at the time. We met online and he was a juggalo. I knew a little bit about ICP - I'm a huge metalhead, Slipknot is my favorite band - so I was familiar enough. After listening to more Psychopathic artists, I fell in love with the music. I fell in love with the family and the meaning. And I was head over heels for this guy. Then we lost contact. I still considered myself a juggalette. About three years later we got in contact again and were dating seriously until 2016. About four years.
In that span of four years things went wrong slowly. He got a DUI, was constantly under the watchful eye of police for hanging out with drug dealers, and was always high on pot (or so I thought) even on probation. Eventually, his car broke down and my mom and I let him move in with us. This is when things got bad. Finally, November of 2016 rolls around. He had a warrant out for his arrest for missing a probation meeting, or I thought that was the reason. Turn out, he tested positive for cocaine and was using since August of that year behind my back. I broke up with him, we kicked him out and forced him to go to jail to serve the warrant.
Not only did he ruin my family experience, his friends that were juggalos followed the same path. Always high and obsessed with drugs. Maybe not everyone is like this, but a large majority of the juggalos I've met are. I love this community, but there's a giant hole in my heart where I can't bring myself to feel the same way as I once did. And I'm sorry, I truly am, because it has been a huge part of my life. But the people I've known as part of this group are not who I want in my life, we are not the same people. I wish it was different. I really do.